Last day

Sittin' here listening to Rascal Flatts. I'm suppose to be heading to town but I have had this intense cramping in my stomach since 6 this morning. I usually get this pain when I'm stressed out and nervous. Explains a lot. So I took a T3 and some mylanta and I'm waiting to feel better so I can go to town and get what I need to get done. I am so unbelievably nervous right now to go back to Albion. I couldn't sleep last night either. I have most of everything packed and ready to be put in my car and I should probably do that now, but I'm in denial haha. I filled out an application for Northern today but who knows what will happen with that. I want to be away from home, but not at Albion. I figure that if I can finish undergrad school here and my major being Bio it would be perfect. Then I can go to Australia for grad school like I've always hoped for.

Anyhoo I had a dream last night that Leslie, Chelsea, Justin (?) and I were driving down this rocky road in the woods and we came across a really wide river, that was beautiful and I rememebr thinking it was Alaska or something ha. But we were wading in this river and I slipped and got swept away. They all chased after me but couldn't get me and I tried swimming towards shore but the weight of my clothes made it impossible. I tried so hard to swim before the curve in the river came because I knew a water fall was after it. All of the sudden some Inuit people came and a man with long black hair grabbed me out of there haha. We started walking again and then it was just Les and I walking down a road and I walked into the tall grass to puke (just about the time I woke up with stomach pains) but then people started coming up to me and taking their pictures with me and Les was laughing. Then my dream changed to Chelsea being with me at registration for Albion. Or something, that one was confusing.

I have to get a computer screen for my broken lap top, my mom doesn't want to pay for it and wants me to get some big honkin old school monitors from Vinnies. I am pissed because the desks are small enough as it is at that stupid school. Maybe I'll just have to have my desk be the floor. Yeah maybe not. Well anyway my laundry is almost done and I need to double check that everything is where it should be. So next entry will probably be on how depressed I am to be back at Albion. BOO.

--ps. that subway pic link in my last journal didn't work.....i don't know how to get pics on here, probably because my home computer is poop.

I'm gonna stop lookin' back and start movin' on
And learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge, with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin'
When the sand runs out
'Cause people do it everyday
Promise themselves they're gonna change
I've been there, but I'm changin' from the inside out
That was then and this is now
I'm a new man, yeah, I'm a brand new man
And when they carve my stone they'll write these words
"Here lies a man who lived life for all that its worth"

<3 RASCAL FLATTS <3